You liked to play with darkness all the universe could give, I was the home you once tried to escape, the dark in which you lived

Back to indie and half-arsed sunshine.

Want to spend the day with special people walking somewhere like this and end up with a night at the pub. However, due to lack of funds on my part and effort on anyone elses, this will not be happening.

Uni soon, some of the people I thought a few months ago would be the people I'd miss the most seem to not really care if they see me or not before we all leave. Funny how times change... it happens I guess.

Every night I remember that evening, the way you looked when you said you were leaving

It's been a beautiful summer, all ended in the perfect way of getting into Manchester University :) still got about three weeks before I leave, but it's all creeping up way too quickly. Ridiculous amount of planning needs to take place, shopping for cooking equipment, clothes, stationary, learning to actually write legibly again, setting up a student bank account, etc, etc. All the things I have to do are swamping me completely... and as always there's the issue of money and not having any. Can't believe I'm gonna be leaving everyone either, that terrifies me completely, met some absolutely amazing people this summer and it's not gonna be enough time before I have to leave them. I have to survive on my own now haha.

Time to go down in flames and I'm taking you closer to the edge

'Better to go alone, than to be badly accompanied'

Fucking love Jared Leto

Kavos was the best fucking week of my life, no doubt. Miss it and the people I met there so much, all everyone seems to be doing now is complaining on Facebook about how they want to be back there, and commenting on all the ridiculous pictures.

Did some stupid things over there, but it was definitely worth it for how funny everything was in the morning. I miss being able to hang out at the beach all day, pre-drink disgusting vodka on the balcony with everyone, dance down the street and on the tables of every single club or bar, go to the beach at about 5am, and always end up back at the hotel sitting outside with the strangest collection of people listening to Zoe's iPod speakers and suddenly realising it's 9 in the morning. Best holiday ever.

Kavos Playlist so far:

Alejandro - Lady GaGa

Love The Way You Lie - Eminem ft. Rihanna

Airplanes - B.O.B ft. Hayley Williams

Nothin' On You - B.O.B ft. Bruno Mars

Your Love Is My Drug - Kesha

Gettin' Over You - David Guetta ft. Fergie & LMFAO

We No Speak Americano - Yolanda Be Cool & Dcup

Commander - Kelly Rowland ft. David Guetta

Ridin' Solo - Jason Derulo

Watch The Sun Come Up - Example

Sexy Bitch - David Guetta ft. Akon

Easy Like Sunday Morning - Lionel Richie

California Gurls - Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg

Born Slippy - Underworld

Don't Stop Me Now - Queen

Frisky - Tinie Tempah

Stereo Love - Edward Maya & Vika Jigulina

Are You Gonna Bang Doe (Poolside Party Remix) - Funky Dee

Feeling This - Blink 182

Year 3000 - Busted

<3

I've been waiting for so long for the summer, and now it's here... I don't know, I guess I thought it would be more. Feels like I need something to work towards, but right now it's the limbo between exams and results, I want life to move forward, there's too much on my mind and I wish I could ignore it.

On a happier note, Inception is an incredible film, the kind of film you spend hours thinking through afterwards, really enjoyed just getting lost in it. Would recommend everyone going to see it, it's basic enough just to enjoy the film, but then if you like thinking really far into things it's amazing.

Off to Kavos tomorrow, can't wait to have a really girly week, even though my liver will give up on me at some point very soon. Going to be so good being back in a hot sunny country :)

I miss New York so much!

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's alright because I like the like the way it hurts

New York was amazing, such a fucking good week, wish I could have stayed longer. Feels like a completely different world over there, and now I'm back to all the drama here. All my money is long gone, have no idea how I'm gonna pay for Kavos in a week. Don't know how certain situations are gonna pan out either, and I hate playing the waiting game, want to know where I stand right now.

And we all sit around here in our home town listen to the waves as they all crash down, and watch the fire as it slowly burns away, glowing embers fly

The last week has been, for the most part, ridiculous. Not sure what's going to happen with certain situations, but right now I have to try and forget about all of that. New York tomorrow :D and I'm going to let go of here and enjoy myself, and it's going to be incredible. Hoping dad's gonna let me take his Pentax camera, which is beautiful, but that might be asking too much.

'You want me to come over, I've got an excuse. Might be holding your hand, but I'm holding it loose.'

Haven't blogged in a week, and realised that things I thought were affecting me have been completely ignored, and aren't any part of any problem anymore. Funny how much things can change in a week if you spend the majority of it off your face sitting in woods and fields and not sleeping.

EVERYBODY MOVE YOUR FEET AND FEEL UNITED

WHEEEEYYYY finally finished A levels. Sitting back with the sun streaming through the window sipping a pear cider waiting to go and buy more. This summer is going to be sweeeeeet. New York in one week :)

I think the finish line's a good place we could start

Take a deep breath, take in all that you could want.

You're neither friend nor foe, though I can't seem to let you go

Study leave is doing very strange things to my brain. Just over a week though, and it's all done. Can't wait to have the free time to do things I've been putting off for ages, re-decorating my room, playing guitar and piano again, and generally not being surrounded by formula's and definitions and diagrams of ridiculously scientific things that I should have never subjected my brain to.

Awesome song, awesome band:

So young and so hungry
So unqualified
Don't want the jobs anyway
No settled life

To get outta here
Two options one chance
You joined the army
I started a band

We'll meet at the bar
We'll buy us a round
We'll toast that we're back home
We'll toast this damn town

Annie's still working
Behind the bar
You can buy her a drink
I'll sleep in the car
Let's go

It's on the way back home
We'll be there soon

One of two choices
I guess i've made mine
I drink in a diffrent town
Nearly every night

And now you don't drink
For months at a time
I owe you a couple of rounds
We're back home tonight

We'll meet at the bar
We'll drink to old times
We'll toast that we're back home
And those left behind

Annie's still working
Behind the bar
You can buy her a drink
And I'll sleep in the car
Let's go

It's on the way back home tonight

We'll toast that we're back home, we'll toast this damn town

Seems ridiculous the amount of times I let things go round in circles, and do nothing concrete to stop them from happening again. Truly worrying about it now because of University. I want to know who the people are that are worth hanging onto when I leave, and not waste my time with people who don't give a shit. Difficult to do though... have no idea how things will be in September. Guess we'll see.

Just liked this :)

Well the sun's gonna rise in a mile, in a mile you'll be feeling fine

Lovely last few days, little lucky things kept happening to make me money in silly ways. Got charged for one pear cider instead of three in Tesco, a teenager gave me £9 to buy him cigarettes and told me to keep the change, and won £5 on a scratchcard. Really made my day haha.

Beautiful weather, and revision time at home, and sunny walks, everything is good.

My young life will not be complete until I have roadtripped around America and driven down a road like this with the wind in my hair.

And it's been this way forever, it was sunrise when we started

Got that horrible tightening in my throat, things are never going back to the way they were. Guess nostalgia's just kinda a given for this time in anyone's life.

While we drifted away
I missed it, missed it all
Caught up in everything
I meant well, but i didn't know how
Throw all caution to the wind
My friend, my eyes

And its been this way forever
It was sunrise when we started
Now the trees have grown all over
And the winter skies are lonely

There was something you said
I heard but I lied
It's beginning to fade
From my head, from my heart
And I'm back here again
Same thing, Same part

And its been this way forever
It was sunrise when we started
Now the trees have grown all over
And the winter skies are lonely

While we drifted away
I missed it, missed it all
Caught up in everything
I meant well but i didn't know how
Throw all caution to the wind
My friend, my eyes


And its been this way forever
It was sunrise when we started
Now the trees grown all over
And the winter skies are lonely

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

Horrible hangover from drinking pretty much all week, but ultimate love for 500 Days of Summer and Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, and the soundtracks for both these films. Really mustn't spend all my time in bed watching films, need to pass these exams.

From Hell They Came

Thinking it's probably a very bad idea to start a new blog a few weeks before my a levels start... my procrastination skills appear to have improved far too much, not going into school to 'revise' at home, then spending the entire morning drinking tea, adding to my wish list on amazon, and downloading '80's glam metal. I have become something slightly odd in the last few years.