That's where I seem to fuck up. I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses.

Direction seems to be returning to life. Moved back up to Manchester properly, it has been far too long. Had to come home for a couple of days for hospital appointments, and already really miss the North, even though I know I'm going back on Friday. Going to Hospitality Liverpool at the weekend, can't fucking wait, missed out on Hospitality Brixton in April, this should make up for it.

Absolutely loving having my independence back, never thought it would feel so good to be able to go out on my own and get around, fully realising how much I lost through breaking my leg, and getting it all back feels incredible. Actually living in a University house instead of halls feels so much more adult as well, didn't think I'd even feel this grown up haha.

Got back into listening to DnB and that whole music scene being back in Manchester, which I'm always gonna fucking love. Standard Hospitality podcasts and every Netsky and Danny Byrd remix that's ever been done. So many people seem to have so much against Hospital Records and the kind of music they represent, but I'm pretty sure I love it more than any other sub-genre of DnB. The Netsky remix of Jessie J's Nobody's Perfect is amazing.

Spent a productive day emailing and ringing various University related people sorting out things, and updating my CV. I am determined to get a job as soon as possible, so desperate for some sort of disposable income.

When I get down, I get respect now, when our tune drops, you know it makes your head bounce.

Been meaning to blog for a while, got distracted by a beer festival amongst other things. Been discovering some new music as well, this guy called Ben Howard, his song called Keep Your Head Up is pretty fucking good. Hate to admit I've found yet another artist I love via One Tree Hill, but Olin & The Moon are an excellent band. Completely different genre, but Rizzle Kicks are actually surprisingly good, need more upbeat music in my life.

This week has been filled with unnecessary paranoia, I know I'm being stupid but my subconscious hates me. Keeping myself busy for the next couple of days though, trip to Coventry to stay in my mates uni house with some close friends, then up to Manc on Monday for a couple of days, sorting my house out and seeing people etc. Going back has felt so daunting for ages, but now it's just around the corner I'm realising how fucking excited I am.

Vaguely sorting out my winter wardrobe, spent too much money the other day on a new hoodie, leather jacket, and jumper, all of which are beautiful.

Lovely but overpriced jumper from Republic.

Anyway, hopefully gonna get my life sorted out in the next couple of weeks, loads to do but cannot wait to get back to my favourite city.

Peace

Goin' to war to prevent war was the most stupid thing I ever heard.

So, the country's had a pretty eventful week. Didn't watch the news all weekend due to either drunkenness or being hungover, then wake up on Monday morning and realise that all hell has broken loose. The way these riots were carried out is absolutely despicable, looting and burning down small, family businesses, and innocent peoples homes. I'm all for an uprising against the government, I have a lot of things against David Cameron and the things he stands for, but if you're going to riot about taxes, and cuts, then go and burn down fucking parliament! Not your own run-down communities! People are dying because of this mindless violence, and that makes me sick to the stomach. I do agree that something needs to be done about the unrest in the country, and the poor/rich divide that is only getting worse, but this was the worst way to go about it. The only positive thing that seems to have come from all this madness is double the number of people as those who had been rioting came out to clean up and sort out some of the chaos. Sort of reminds me of the moral amongst people during the Blitz... apart from the really fucked up difference that in this situation we're cleaning up the ruins that our own citizens have caused.

Well, that's the rant over, has also been fuelled by the incredible lyrics of The King Blues, their albums Save the World, Get the Girl, and Punk and Poetry are absolutely amazing, pretty much all I've been listening to for the last couple of weeks.

Something needs to be done about the bloody Conservatives, but not the way riots were carried out this past week.

I've got too much time on my hands, and you don't understand, oh you won't understand.

Just discovered The Vaccines, pretty decent band from what I've heard, love finding new artists to listen to. Had a pretty crazy week last week, friends free houses in the summer are one of my favourite things, love the makeshift community everyone creates, so different from a one night house party, everyone gets so involved with everything.

Been listening to loads of Ed Solo & Skool of Thought the past couple of weeks, such upbeat tunes. Got back into Less Than Jake as well, which always cheers me up.

Having a sober week this week, making up for the carnage of last week. Think it's doing me good, started physiotherapy today as well, so got that to focus on. Ordered some books for when I go back to uni.. attempting to be productive when there's minimal things I actually need to do.

ElectroSwing will always be king.

Peace

Darling, there's no need to worry, 'cos elektricity will keep me warm.

Line ups for WHP in Manchester came out today, I'm craving to go back so much now. Hoping to god I'm back in a normal state by then and can actually go to the ones I wanna go to. Have no idea how things are gonna progress with my leg, and don't know if I'll even find out at my appointment on Tuesday. Positive attitude is waning.

Been listening to London Elektricity's latest album 'Yikes' again today, love how chilled London Elektricity's stuff is. Was listening to some old Hospitality podcasts as well, need to catch up on them, played a tune by BCee feat. Lingby called Count The Stars; so good. This kind of drum and bass is something I always associate with Manchester, really cannot wait to get back and be independent again, don't know how long that's gonna take though.

Found another one of Brian Fallon's pre-Gaslight Anthem bands the other day, Brian Fallon and the Cincinnati Rail Tie, they only brought out one EP, but the few songs they did make are excellent, as, in my opinion, is anything Brian Fallon does.

Dosing up on the vitamin C and tea at the moment, hoping it may cure my cold.

Peace.

You can only fool yourself for so long.

Chase & Status' album No More Idols is fucking excellent. Don't care how mainstream they are becoming, they still make very good music.

Only productive thing I've achieved in the last week is becoming absolutely incredible at Guitar Hero and Rock Band. Have spent too much time playing, and it is ridiculous that I class it as a productive thing to spend hours doing, aha. My mates got a free house at the moment, perfect opportunity for me to start getting out again, even if it does mean my drinking is back on the up. Also the smoking, but I need to keep that under control, can't have my ankle fucking up further purely because I can't resist a cancer stick. Gotta continue to attempt to save money as well, but don't think that's gonna happen.

Can't wait for my next hospital appointment on the 26th, could be given bad news but I am sick of waiting.

And they say, she's in the class A team, stuck in her daydream, been this way since eighteen

The A Team by Ed Sheeran is such a beautiful song, been pretty much listening to it on repeat since yesterday. As well as Finale by Funeral Party, such a tune. Getting back into my indie after listening to nothing but dnb for months.

Heard a preview of Brian Fallon's new band, The Horrible Crowes, today, sounds like it's gonna be an amazing album, have to wait until September for the release though. Until then will have to make do with continuing my obsession with Gaslight Anthem.

Definitely deserve a much worse hangover than I have today, drank an unnecessary amount for a quiet night at the pub last night. Still woke up at 7am feeling not too bad, my sleeping patterns are that of a person working 9 to 5, bit useless when my days are mostly spent inside with the inconvenience of a broken ankle. Has meant that I get far too excited about small outings though, everything feels like such a novelty. Got a day out at a manor house and gardens with my family tomorrow for my sisters birthday, definitely something that would have been a chore in the past, and I'm now really quite looking forward to.

I know I said this injury was just plain depressing despite any silver linings, but there are actually a lot of things that have come from this which I wouldn't have achieved if I'd just continued the way I was going. Yes, it completely stopped me living a normal life for a couple of months, and still does to some extent, but I've managed to practically quit smoking, from a 30 a day habit, cut down my drinking drastically, and save quite a lot of money.

And, when it comes down to it, things could have been a lot worse.

Peace.